I am Sorry ,I Abandoned myself

For a long time my blog has been in state of suspended animation . I know it is grossly unfair to those who are concerned with me as also the subject of economices which I love most.I am still not able to understand what pulls me down & why I am not sensible & responsible enough to do justice to my blog which was created to have dialogue with a broader audience , my students being the treasured segment in it . After congratulating Prof.Paul Kurgman when he won the noble prize in 2008, I did not bother to renew my romance with the blog. Today my student friend from IT city of India is right now with me & goading me to action.He is only typing this post. I hope that I would rediscover & reinvent myself in the days to come by sharing my emotional & intellectual links with subject & also other worldly things of life. I have bottledup my feelings on a varity of things in many diaries over a period of time & under the caption from my dateless diary I would like to post taking some excerpts perhaps doing some marginal editting .

For three weeks, during October end & first two weeks of November 2009 I was privileged to be in Paris & Few cities in Germany. Mr Sangeet Varghese, currently CEO of a company in Bangalore & emerging as Scholar in the area of leadership was of enormous help in my preparition for the foregin trip besides my few collegues & other well wishers & one christian father at Pondicherry.Mr.Paul Arokiyam Raja one of my former students currently in London was in touch with me during my stay in Europe through Mail.I told him that I would be documeting my expirence in both English & my mother tounge Tamil in the days to come . Indeed I did write a few pages in Tamil , breathing & drinking the cool breze in the serane enviroment there - the air conditioned city of Paris .

Besides lecturing on the issues related to free trade & Globalisation at University Of Paris 13 , I had an opportunity to interact with youth & especially a few French Girls, while traviling to Germany & Visiting the museme at paris. I was amazed by their tremendous maturity & wisdom in their thinking process & I could only emvy them .In the final leg of my stay at Paris a sizable number of Tamil Families & friends showered their love.

I under took my first overseas trip in the 40th year of teaching & at matured young age of 60;it has had a profound infulence on me.In what respect it has transformed me I cannot say fully but it's true in some respect I am a changed man & I can't fully express the nature of change for it is like a feeling of love or romance which one can only feel & not explain to others .

A poet told once; Blessed is he who has found his work & let him ask no other happiness. I would add here that beside work one should also have his/her own love & also an opportunity to travel a lot especially beyond his/her country's geogaphical boundry.

After returning from this trip I sincerly feel that like first love ,first kiss & the first poem in ones life , the first overseas trip has also got its own fun ,thrill , adventure & so on. I was unlucky not to have fallen in any mad love with any girl at the right young age although I was a student of Madras Presidency college in late 60's & later assistance Professor in Goverment Arts College in the Kerala Region of Union Tertory of Pondicherryin early 70's, given my shyness & brought up in traditional outlook in those days .I do not remember the first kiss at the time of marriage but the first poem that I wrote in Tamil is very clear in my green memory.

I am lucky that I could undertake the first forign trip against heavy odds and I may not be able to capture all my intesnse feelings which I experienced there , but defiently i can share a little & recollect in tranquility in the days to come. This Trip will enable me to look back at my own village & college life & also enable me to do a tremdous lamentation over my country's state of affairs in all walks of life although it is projected to be one of the emerging economic powers in 21st century.