Monday, October 25, 2010

I wonder how I have been lived through with all my naivety inherited from mother

We don’t expect a miracle to save .People go through life wondering what they are suppose to do when it is always right in front of them .They should do what they are good at. Instead of dreaming and worrying about many things that they can’t accomplish, they must attempt to chew those things which are manageable. Although we know that everyone will get his moment, and that we need not worry about many things by sheer human nature many a time we complicate simple things and also tend to postpone those things which need to be addressed immediately. I have paid a heavy price in my life by not taking proper care of both domestic and financial life. By sheer fate and destiny- sorry simple stupidity and incapacity to sort out my priorities. lacking smartness and diplomacy and so on , I messed up many things in life.


The great consolation was that my mother lived for a long time and more important she spent her last decade of her life with me. She was always never tired of her work. Till the end her hard work alone sustained her life. She never complained about life, she never slept during day time especially after taking lunch. She lived her life fully, energetically, emotionally and may a time naively with God given serenity and wisdom. Only towards the end of her life I was patient, calm and understanding. I should have treated her well and given more to her. Her life itself was an education to me. My education was useless for my life except to get a passport to lead a comfortable life in academic corridors with some commitment of course towards societal causes. Strong parental genes have kept me in good stead amidst financial loss and domestic chaos. Economics, as my first love has always served as an anchor.

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