The greatest thing in my life is that an invisible hand, the divine grace has nursed and nurtured me for a larger part of life.
Like my parents I lived in truth and honesty and led a simple and frugal life.
No great ambition , goal or target worth mentioning. This does not mean it was a directionless life or I didn't grasp the significance and purpose of my academic life.
The truth is I didn't try to be someone. I remained what I was.I am what I am today and I do what I do by sheer guidance from the above.This has nothing to with any trade in love with God or bargaining with the creator of the universe.
Being disorderly orderly and not conditioned by any habit of visiting temple on my own I was unconventional in my faith and belief in the supreme in a typical unconscious way.
To put it differently I never identified myself with the religion into which I was born nor fall into any caste craziness to degrade myself. It just happened by sheer divine will.
Indeed with all my blessings in life good parental genes ,great childhood friends, excellent teachers and all the happy accidents in education all through my life I had become aware that I was fine tuned by some power from above and I was just a puppet in the drama of life.And yet I had more anger with the creator given the grinding poverty and escalating inequality among the people in the world in typical spirit of Bharathiyar and Valluvar..There was a rebel in me crying for justice and equality although at personal level I was more than blessed...
This duality persists even now when I have reached the threshold of serene seventy.
I have not abandoned the child and poet in me and the rebellious side against the establishment right from the start has stayed put.i remained at a healthy distance from the power machine..
To be fair and honest any residual or little ambition worth mentioning is my passionate interest in teaching and unconsciously imbibing the spirit of helping the fellow humans- a trait I cultivated from parents. This attribute was fully reflected in my work and attitudes under all circumstances. I took teaching and reading with all sincerity of purpose and my universe was the student community. Quite inevitably it had its own fallout on the domestic side.
Although I didn't neglect the family and children, they were never treated as a matter of much significance given my naivety and preference for a life of simplicity and frugality.
The poetic statement :
Blessed is he who has found his work / Let him ask no other happiness was true in my case.
During my previous trip to Adelaide 2017/18 I scribbled Dsam on dsam and some were put in Face book and also blog. I do not fully remember..That diary will be located once I reach my home and memories /Memoirs will be synthesized..
(My Scribbling pad: Adelaide 2020)
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