what we know is little! but we pretend as if we are jack of all trades and fool ourseves and the society

All through my academic life inclusive of my retirement period during which the academic greed has only increased,I knew that I did not know much, but constantly thinking how to improve my knowledge and update my self in teaching.with humility and a sense  Pride   I would say that amost of the things that I taught were learnt after getting the degree.Indeed most of us qualify for the degree only after getting it as my. Professor S P Viswanathan used to say at presidency college..He was my neighbour in the fourth or fifth floor at Bhashya Sadhanam lodge 49 Nallathambi street Triplicane.He and S P Palanisamy another professor who stayed with me on the same floor, were my mentors and guides who shaped me we'll both on the academic and personal sides.

When I came across the sentence,"we can only know that we  knew nothing.And that is the highest degree of human wisdom" in Leo Tolstoy ( war and peace) i was pleasantly surprised that I had already internalised that spirit of Tolstoy.

When I am in the sunset stage of my life I feel that I have forgotten my silken touch with my subject and I remain fully ignorant of what is happening around me as most of the news is fabricated..But with the four decades of teaching as the collateral I do have a semblance of some wisdom which must reside in some parts of molecules of the brain...At best I can be a good discussant than the main player....but given the compelling environment ,I have the mental stamina to wade through international economics.I can't escape from my discipline..That is not only my merit but also a disadvantage for I  will not be able to read other books...

Understanding the fact that I do not know and that I will not know much in future  and hence I should study as much as possible and as fast as possible is a sign of wisdom.

Tamil literature will merit  more attention than economics and I need them to survive as the ageing process is making me to feel sleepy cutting my active hours every day day and also açeleratea my sleep drought which is not healthy at this age ....I need to read   and write for my existence although  no one  is waiting in the queue....This gives an extra freedom and bonus to write what we feel.Nature will decide which one must survive.If it makes sense the internet will carry for a while and then the nature will take care of our residual as it has taken care of me this far .