Thursday, May 24, 2012

Mid 2012 Musings –Part II: God will not abandon me on the academic side too


Mid 2012 is also significant in another important respect. The house I built with the help of my parents and H.B.A of Pondicherry government has already completed its Silver jubilee.Indeed Sakthi was born in this new house by sheer quirk of fate- wise and benevolent fate, as was foretold  by an astrologer.  Even before the alliance was fixed, the renovation work had started in the ground floor without giving serious consideration to the financial implication  of the reconstruction process .Kindly note that the building was as strong as the sturdy heart of my parents and mine too. So it was not due to lack of strength or elegance, a remodeling had to be done  but there was fundamentally wrong with the management of space . Without blaming anyone it was just my stupidity and lack of dreaming capacity which resulted in that kind of shelter, under which I did not get peace for long. What can you expect from a person like me, who became a father of two daughters at an immature age of just twenty five? It is better late than never, to correct one’s own mistake.For everything in life there is a tradeoff .Now, by paying a small price in terms of few lakhs ,my children will get the comforts and convenience of the semi luxury of the art of modern construction , looking good  by just changing the tiles .
Will it make people really happy and be at peace with themselves? Never. But the house will not be blamed for one’s own stupid act or failings in life hence forward. In the last leg of my journey in life, the stupid mind thinks about constructing a room above for doing meditation on the subject, fully aware that weakness, loss of memory and of course the tiredness pervading the entire body will not be of much help in repairing my academic side and consolidating the reconstruction there. But there is a lingering faint hope that God will not abandon me on the academic side too and with the help of some friendly souls floating around me , even while living I can and I should see some of the writings in print or in the blog .  When I write these lines I think about the debate between Sydney Alexadr and Macullum on devaluation question, Lawson Metzler interpretation about the insulation of stable economy under exogenous disturbances under the regime of floating, my uneasiness with Samuelson’s way of correcting Hume’s Mechanism, Shallowness of economic reforms in India , Chiese Yuvan’s mischief of under valuation,deepening Euro zone crisis, the U.S economy  and the dollar as the main villain in the evolution of International financial architecture , the relevance or irrelevance of Keynes in today’s world, secular tendency of rupee to depreciate leading to chaos, rising gold price, the venality of corruption , deepening political uncertainty in the largest democracy on  the Earth, irresponsible and indifferent attitudes towards  economics by the rulers,  the need to understand the writings of Paul Krugman , rekindling the memories of Harry G.Johnson and Jaon Robinsn  to current breed of students  and so on . The list is long and varied and I have so many miles to walk after retirement. But there is always a feeling of inadequacy and frustratingly irritating experience of not having done many things earlier. In any case, even if I don’t and can’t write more, I will read .This is just to console me and live with out getting into any kind of depression.

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