Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Recollecting 30.09.2010 in tranquility: Part One


For Reasons known to God, sleeping in heavens, I have not regained my physical vigor and academic rigour ever since I fell down from the stair case, last July 2011. I  slipped yesterday  too  in  one marriage dining hall while  moving towards the wash basin.Thank God, the  nasty fall was averted, though    I did fall . Hence forward I should exercise more restraint and moderate my feverish /boyish tendencies.  It  is also high time  the preparations were made for cataract operation. I am painfully realizing that I am becoming old, getting tired more easily and not having physical stamina to negotiate  the  summer heat in absence of any air conditioning facility.
For long , Blog writing has been  in a state of suspended animation , despite my Ph.D scholar  willing to help and goad me to action .As his opportunity cost of time is vary high  I do not want to trouble him.Frustration with my associates or colleagues whom I loved very dearly also made me to alienate.
 The saddest part of my life , not withstanding the finest, happiest moments I have enjoyed (especially my youngest daughter’s   marriage event-   a really  memorable event of my whole  life time) is that I am not able to read and write as much as I can or I would like to.
While cleansing my book shelf I stumbled upon a few scribblings about myself, written on the last day of September 2010.What was my mental makeup then? Please go through the following from my dateless diary.Recollecting the past to learn the laws of life is always welcome, although one should not wallow up in the sufferings of the past.

I am grateful to  the Lord  that I was born to hard working and honest parents who valued work ethics ,  and self respect as important components of  life. By sheer happy accident, the Supreme has  inculcated in me that kind of attitude and approach towards life. All titles and designations have come on their own without asking for it.
 I do fully understand that the best things in life are almost free and I don’t know how far you would agree with me when I say that you do not need much  material wealth to be happy or to lead a full life , which of course does not mean  more happiness, more comforts and more material well being . Indeed a luxurious life is a dead and boring one. That is why God has made life as a judicious mixture of joy and sorrow. Even while the cup of life is overflowing with sorrow and misery by our sheer attitude, we shall convert them into joy. My own experience is that every sorrowful event is a welcome event, more than the joyous ones.We should be grateful to those who really inflict more injury into our heart and mind.

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