The new depression
has formed near Ceylon/Andaman islands and TN and Puducherry are likely
to experience some mild effects. But even before that the residual intense cough and the latent
heat came to the surface. Despite going to sleep before 9 to regulate the sleep
pattern disciplne myself and regain the lost sleep the whole night seemed to be an endless struggle
and i do not remember how many times I got up. Making a recourse to some cough
syrup and a spoon of honey with hot water did give some relief but the whole night was just unforgettable. However,
the positive fallout was that my boy - not a direct student- but more than the
student, prof Aravanan came in my dream
in multiple layers after a long gap
For those who may not be familiar with him it is sufficient to say that he was a great
professor in commerce more popular among
the students and learned scholars more
dedicated to the subject and a typical
24 hour teacher. Given his proximity with me and his own specialised knowledge
in stock market and foreign exchange economics most of my MIM and MBA students
took his soft core papers.they all loved and respected him as his own regular
students.
Now the dream part:
I am sitting in a class room may be in the SOM new building
where commerce dept is housed. Aravanan had already come there and I did not
notice him. After seeing him i go near to him and say sorry that I have not
grasped his presence.
Dream 2:My first son- in- law who was one of his favourite students
and also in a sense relative narrates to me in the second layer of the
dream....He says: it seems Aravanan sir has gone to your home and asked
Somu:”Will you give the Mama’s Activa
key ; I want to go to university and safely return the scooter back”
Finally about the
dream (that is still etched in my memory) which a fortnifgt after his demise came in two stages
in successive weeks :We are travelling
in the university bus At that time ( in the dream ) he had taken VRS on
personal grounds for record purpose. I am still in service ask him why he has
taken the trouble of coming to the campus? He replies: I do not feel at home in
my home.I am more comfortable here in my room and the library. I have decided
to visit the university daily......
Another dream :I am alone
in the new campus Silver jubilee
building..Perhaps a holiday kind of atmosphere.. not a single soul is present in the building .I
am sitting alone in the verandha on a
chair with a small desk before me and writing something;at a distance on the
green lawns I watch Aravanan coming
slowly and hesitantly towards me. It is something surprising that despite the
distance of some metres i could clearly see the longing and lingering desire in
his eyes to see me and talk to me. In the dream itself I remember how he had avoided
me and Prof santhalingam on M G street
corner. In his final days(which he was
not aware of ) he had distanced himself from many with whom he was very close
emotionally
I put on the light it was around 4 am and I noted the contents of the dream
inclusive of one that came long ago lest
I would forget . Having lost even the disturbed sleep I did not venture/want to type ,scared of my
daughter’s scolding. In any case the head-ache returned and gave company till 7 am
.The sun was shining brightly with intermittent rain.
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