The age of innocence was dissolved soon and the arrival of
the adolescents age was an inevitable torture. Two solid factors provided the foundation
to insulate myself from the vices and
all kinds 0f dirt and filth into which I could have very easily fallen. Even while I
was at school I had almost completed reading of Dr M Varadarasanar ‘s (Shortly
MU.VA) novels like karith thundu, kallo
kaviyamo,mann kudisai,doctor Alli, Aghal vilakku nenjil Oru Mull,Thambikku,
thangaiku etc and I used to write down the important sermons for the youth
from these books. Extensive reading of MU VA,
Jayakantan and chandilyan gave me a sense of balance to taste the
sensual side of youth and the society based issues. Besides all these or more
than this my shy timidity and total ignorance of vice and the presense of ,good friends were the plus
factors while studying at Pondicherry town and later the metropolitan Madras
city now called Chennai.
Focus on education and fear factor of girls again the
timidity always stood as watch guards.I
was the only one in our group of five men army without any girl friend. No
distraction or diversion but at that time i never dreamt that distinction will come
in the form of gold medal.The only consolation was that my friends would agree
to which class we must cut before going
to Buhari in the marina for tea and hear the music by putting just 25 paisa into
the juke box
My launch into wide and mad world of education was ordained
by god.”what should I become” was a question which neither my parents nor I could honestly address and my entry into
economics just happened because of my fear of mathematics in Tagore Atrs
college and later in 1968 the college
first higher third class to get a berth
in presidency madras.
I had many reasons
to regret in later life and many things to complain but not in my tender
young age of school life. Coming from a village and getting a post graduate
degree with distinction from Presidency college of Madras of those days when getting first class was like landing on the
moon was the most memorable event in my life and i could smell the touch of The
supreme’s hand.It was not just my hard work but the grace from above has lifted
me and till date He has not abandoned me in the academic sphere.
Yesterday for the
first time I took decision that i should go to bed early and get good sleep to
lessen the BP but experienced the mild tremor of giddiness for no fault .It
lasted till i plunged into sleep.I hope and pray that the wise and benevolent
destiny will give some bonus time to put into the machine some economics stuff
that i have managed to understand.It is said that Greed is America and I do not
have any shyness in saying that “ academic greed is Sambandhan”.It is akind of
addiction and I will try to moderate the subject romance by sharing growth with
others in Delhi, Colombo and Pondicherry.
Academics is not
taken seriously as there is a rat race to climb to the top very easily by non
academic means. There is a greater responsibility on the part of serious people
in the subject to do some work interpretative or innovative all the time keeping the relevance of the
needs of the society. Thus far, leading a frugal life without the comforts of costly car or the
luxury of rich star hotel food and in future the nuisance of pseudo friends is by itself a great
achievement.A life of simplicity and austerity will give more peace and good
health
I have spared more time for others particularly those who do not have concern
for others and values in life because of my tendancy to help Now the time has
come to devote some time for the subject and the underpivieged .Despite age telling me that I am old I give auto suggestion to the
molecules of my brain that I will not become old and feel young and hence i
should not be disturbed.
We will not forget to
laugh at our own stupidities and of course the stupidity and sometimes the
venality of our rulers spread all over the world. The recent attack on Paris is
shocking and we can only pray to not
just Lord but to these misguided elements that they do not have any right to
take away the life before the expiry date.Terrorism at the global level is the consequence
of so many intricate factors ranging from religious intolerance and lack of
economic space to many. I read recently the new version of Gresham’s law: bad
capitalism drives away good capitalism from circulation
.All the outstanding disputes and issues must be sorted out
and the world bodies must have the backbone and intelligence to take the law in
both hands and check the wrong doers.Moral universe has shrunk and the super
powers are aiming at more powers and not all bothered about reducing inequality
and giving liberty also preserving the dignity of labour.Money making madness must
stop and market must be tamed wherever it crosses the limit and the elite must
not hesitate to moderate the heightened arrogance of the rulers when they too
play politics and butcher the people in the name of god or correcting history.There
are many important things to do and therefore all of us have a role to play in
building up a new global order that will help eradicate hunger and terror and
restore dignity to labour
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