From my dateless Diary , The first day of the forty first year in service,7/08/2010

I look back at the road I had walked through Economics bin the last four decades.At discreet time interval I had experienced many a time ten minutes fame, finest academic triumphs and also the cruelest humiliations. In sum there was more joy than sorrows.

I know I had not engineered any earthshaking invention or contribution or innovative ideas.But with tremendous strength of character and conviction I can say loudly that I practiced more the than the optimal work ethics and more importantly I took the teaching profession with all sincerity and seriousness and my passion for teaching has never waned even for a day, single day.

Like Cleopatra Economics made me hungry even while it satisfied.Like a labourer, artist or ordinary painter I was doing my job;it was more of a tapas under chaos .

I had always experienced  some sort of pressure or struggle at work place.Though basically gentle and non interfering in other's affairs and tended to shy away from political game, it was my fate that there were times I found myself embroiled in situation that had seemed to go out of control and become a victim.

But all through the series of the crisis I did not reciprocate hate politics and didn't attempt to commit suicide when my legitimate academic entitlements were denied and glossed over on spurious and technical grounds.All these gave me the much needed perspective and understanding of life and people.

Now when I type by listening to Tamil old cinema songs I want to add that the retired athelete has nothing to prove.

He still will have a zest for sports related activities.I am still in it, albeit in a modest way with the spirit.

I am neither retired nor tired.My physical ailments have not stood in the way of reinventing and rededicating myself to learn new things.

Even now I feel like a old student of 1960s and 1970s, and a child and poet in me will take care and protect my innocence,and residual commonsense which is nothing  but economics as was once told by my professor V Sasankan in my B A class.