We are all prisoners of habit and circumstances and destiny and therefore we are different every day

There are so many special things that I ought to be doing every day...but not knowing what it's . Even while I am fully aware of a host of things to be done  there's no zest to carry out and I find helpless and clueless.

For ages and centuries I have been indulging in an act of setting right many things before they go out of control..indeed I am afraid I am distanced from many things already and I am lost, like a child on the thousand mile journey in the middle.

I trust that all of us are not what we were yesterday.we cling to the past and derive some substitute gratification.

Then we do also realise that it is futile to be tied with the past and get conditioned by emotional demand of others.

But we crave for them from others, relations or firends

Many of the things happening around me should not be happening but I can't stop it as it is beyond my reach and my capabilities.

My academic greed or life expectations are bare minimum and following the dictum of Goethe, I would like to hear a little music , read a good poen, see a fine picture and if possible speak a few reasonable words..

My life is neither a success or failure..I have lived a full life tasting it's bitterness and sweetness.

I could feel the invisible hand of not Adamsmith but God many a time who really rescued me from all kinds of danger and evil.

I was destined to be a teacher and I did that job creditbly well to the satisfaction of my soul... There's nothing like success or failure.Each is an experience by itself..

There were long spells of academic distress but compensation came in the form of financial fortune and  later the roles were reversed.

I know before I get fused with mother earth I will be undergoing a great deal of transformation but the inner core will remain in tact without getting disturbed..It might be shaken a little bit but historically given genes and my instinct in trusting human having affection spontaneously for others and also enjoying being together will sail me through peacefully and gracefully..

Regardless of the phase of life I am entering into one thing is certain I will not lose faith in the supreme and karma..

I am just a puppet in the drama of life.

I will try my level best from the tone of the voice and the brightness of the smile on my black face  I will rveal that I am in good mood and good health no matter what I am undergoing at a given moment.

It is said that one should gradually mature in life and be like the tamarind fruit inside a shell existing but detached 

I can't leave all the desires for good food and I will moderate it by eating what I like  and alet the food fight it out inside.The same is the case with the accumulation of  my academic debris...I will try to delink and get rid of myself from worldly attachments even while I am in it.

More importantly I want to go out in my own way to be extremely friendly with fellow humans as I had been all along in my life .