From Silent Soliloquy (Fiction): Presnet less tense, future less imperfect-My Dateless Diary (2002/2003)

Given the philosophical bent of mind, I know that I am here, not to compare or compete with others.My uniqueness as a person, as a teacher, writer and orator and so on has been not fully grasped by your good self .The creative and productive side of the individual has been fully ignored, ridiculed and marginalized under the dominant weight of hypocrisy and sadism.I can’t blame you.

No intention to measure my success or failure by comparing with others. But if you have any self introspection, have time and mental rhythm and resilience to dig into the recent past you would      notice that fragmented, degraded and devalued minds, with very little work ethics and academic potentials/output have been showered by bonus and positions.I don’t quarrel over this.They have been rewarded for their shallowness backed up by exhibition of flattery.

Temporarily you have succeeded in erecting stumbling blocs to stifle my creativity and enterprise.Foolishly I have given more room for blunting my innate capacity to read and write.Now I know that I need to change and grow, in my own ways, doing things which make me happy.

I must undo the magical reality of anxiety manifested in me, which virtually blocked  my vision and modest ambition-Mine will be neither cooperation not confrontation, but  a pure self interospection, to tap the  hidden potentials and power.If I am careful enough to listen to the voice within me here and now- the precious moment, which is nothing but the present, then present will not be tense and future, less imperfect

This is the season of seminar.Last week I was at AVC College to meditate on Friedman. On Friday, I delivered a lecture on euro zone crisis, the essence of which I shall post soon.

The stories of the currencies are not just given, but made depending upon one’s own perceptions of the issues involved and understood by the story teller.I am a story teller.

In the  face of complex and multiple factors involved, there is  difficulty in telling the true  story-It s very rare to get a true or a natural story-construction is therefore artificial-in some sense – a derivative of different view points .stories  are made from reality- reality is made up of events that have actually occurred; in a true  story events should not be invented-plausible  and speculative observations could be made.

Selections and arrangement must be such that they represent reality or at least do not misrepresent them.

My task is to compose, integrate, interpret and explain, components are not fully mine.

My intent is to look for strong element of commonality- narration is not planned, it has evolved given the absorption of the facts.I could select them from the whole range of possible events/ outcomes.

This is true of not only the currency crisis volume, but also on silent soliloquy piece on campus politics.