I wish my brain had a map to tell me where my heart should go

I wish my brain had a map to tell me where my heart should go, is a quote by someone. All through my life,I did not have any goal or ambition. There was not even any modest target to be achieved within any specific time span. I neither exploited my full academic potentials nor did capitalize the existing talent and made money. Money did come on its own and not when I  went after it, long ago for a brief spell in the financial market.

Lacking ambition and dynamism to bulldoze others and also not doing any politics against anyone and also losing promotion by jumping into the trade union bandwagon and indulging in a devastating attack in the form of trenchant criticism against the superior who was good for nothing even to be a professor in an ordinary college but presiding over the larger destiny of the Institution of Higher Learning, I could survive without committing suicide. I did not compromise on principles in life. In crude terms there was nothing in the molecules of brain to suggest and hence indulge in the familiar  intellectual prostitution so as  to curry favour with the clowns in academic garb and rise up in life like dust and dry leaves soaked in dirt and filth.

Not taking BA Tamil -  a subject where I got the proficiency  but Joining BA economics-  about which I did not have any idea were not just accident  but  a manifestation of some invisible force and perhaps the brain had the map to tell me where my heart should go .In retrospect it was an incredible romance with the infinite beauty and variety of the young discipline namely Economics.Perhaps that may be the reason why one of my students currently an eminent professor in a central university says that my writngs in Economics  “Are all love letters meaning no data and no econometrics”.I take this comment as compement as i sincerel feel that all my emotive and Passionate article/papers will be read by many.All of us know that in the first instance love letter written thousands of years ago are now read by  many now.

Many call themselves as Economists and appear on all kinds of stages and conferences including TV shows, virtually selling themselves in the market and in the process also learning some subjects again to fool around and announce that they are jack of all trades and also masters in all branches .What about the passion? Do they have any conviction?

I only wish and pray ,the youngsters of today, who are more talented and having native intelligence had the brain to draw the roadmap for them and tell where the heart would go in order that they will have a sense of fulfilment in Professional life and also on slippery marital waters.