Monday, December 17, 2018

The residual academic greed continues to get liberation from the accumulated notes which weigh me down.

without setback and challenges there is no thrill or fun in life.I have had enough of it.I enjoyed and also suffered I was insulted and humiliated.i did not commit  suicide.
Like my parents I have lived a life of honesty, frugality and simplicity..unlike them-lustful desires and devilish and degrading thoughts  invaded me during the retirement days but by god's grace and silken touch with the subject I was saved; liberation in real sense means getting independence from sensual thoughts.

I have a satisfaction that foolishly and feverishly I  studied with passion and patience as a student through out my teaching career..I never had notes in my hand  nor looked into books while teaching,; this also meant that I had to keep them in memory in a particular lest i would not forget.

In a pre dinner talk at Hyderabad arranged in honour of Prof Nachane in the econometric conference, Prof Suresh Tendulkar   a senior economist came to me after the lecture was  finished,Hi Sambandhan , how are you managing without notes in hand?", I told him with much humility, Sir i will have problems only when I have notes..I am a disorderly orderly person and my delivery is a function of preparation and also the type of audience and I  get the flow and interpretation from cosmos( past reading ).

I was reading for teaching..It was only after going to university I started writing thanks to the Hindu Business Line support.I am basically a teacher than a researcher  and my students are the  hi tech PhDs each capable of independent thinking and practicing work ethics.

In my long journey of 50 years plus, i have  learned a little and slipped a little,never got bored with teaching even a single day and each class was taken with all seriousness and some fear..I have acquired the wisdom that I do not know many things in my subject;but the academic greed is there.I have resumed my lustful romance with my discipline and i talked to  two of my professors in Pune and Hyderabad today, telling them I am in it
I will be happy if I slowly get freedom from my accumulated academic debris and convert them into some good monograph which will help the motivated readers .

(From the Fallout of  Dsam's Adelaide diary , updated today ) 

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