Revisiting the letter to Mother on Death Bed- Part Six

It appears, you are preparing
For the next Journey
The wise and benevolent Destiny,
The all merciful God,
The Greater power, which
Has all along empowered you,
All through your life,
Must help you at this hour,
The agonizing moments of
Your life and of course our life too.
As far as I am concerned,
I want to see you
Exit from earth/ for a
Better tomorrow
And also see Sakthi,
Settle down in life.



Will there be any miracle?
Can you get back to your feet?
Thus far, you were energized
By work and work only
Now, bed ridden, gradually
Losing Memory,
And also lacking ability to
Weave words and express,
The possibilities for your resurrection are remote.
We can only pray that
All merciful God, Must wrap you up,
Gently , sweetly and tenderly.
Should not God compensate you
For all the harsh
Treatment meted out to you by me
Inadvertently, stupidly and in a semi state of
Savage unconsciousness
It seems God is more cruel then me.

In the absence of special ward
As also the absence of
Female attendants,
We could not prolong our stay
At General Hospital.
Without ‘walk’ and ‘work’
You are slowly withering away
And shrinking
And moving far away from me.
Already I am seeing the vacuum
At Home;
More than going from ‘here’
Me not giving you enough
Will haunt me for ever
It’s only my mistake
That I couldn’t realize fully
Your ageing process
And its attendant consequences.
It’s natural to part at 90 plus
And yet
I feel that I have not
Done full justice to you.